After having my daughter, Blakely, I put pressure on myself to get back to where I was before. When I would leave the gym, I’d often be frustrated because I didn’t feel as strong as I thought I should. I lost sight of what going to box was for me as I was only focused on performance. The box for me is my get away, my happy place, the place I go to live life with the people I love. I do it because I enjoy it and I love being a FIT momma. Whether I lift 5lbs less, or run 10 seconds slower, I’m still a fit momma. I quickly realized, the season of life we are in plays a huge part of what’s happening at the gym. A bigger priority in my life right now, is being a mom and being available for Blakely. Has my training looked different than it did two years ago? Yes! Is my eating 100% clean right now? No! Am I getting as much sleep as I was two years ago? No! Have my priorities changed a little? Yes! Is it fair to compare myself to the person I was two years ago? Absolutely not! Every season in life brings different priorities, obstacles, and events. The only thing we can do is be the best person we can be in that season we are in.
Just as in life, your CrossFit journey comes with seasons as well. When so many of us started CrossFit, we experienced PR after PR. The high of mastering a new skill, lifting heavier, and running faster seemed to come almost every workout. But, what happens once you’ve been doing it for two years, five years, or even longer, when those PR days aren’t happening near as frequently? So often I see people in the gym discouraged when they aren’t seeing the improvements they think they should be seeing. They start to lose motivation, become frustrated, and lose the passion and fire they once had before. If we were to set personal records every day, we would all be going to the CrossFit Games. Of course seeing improvement is important and fun, but if we expect that from ourselves everyday, we are beating ourselves up over something that is not realistic (and not the ultimate goal of CrossFit). It’s important, no matter who you are or what your goals are, to stop and enjoy the moment you are in. If you aren’t having fun, then why are you doing it? Not every day at they gym has to be a personal record day. Enjoy the process, enjoy the people, enjoy this season in life and enjoy knowing that you bettered yourself today regardless if you PR’d or experienced failure after giving maximum effort (I take pride in both).
Today, I try to laugh a little more, act a little silly, and enjoy this beautiful time in life. After all, if we aren’t having fun, why are we doing it? The season will soon change and my goals may be different, but right now I’m going to embrace the moment and enjoy every second. This moment will fly by and will be gone before we know it.